Well, if there is anyone out there who didn't know, we are pregnant again! This is our fourth and last child. I had my 20 week ultrasound on December 30th. Originally, Matt and I had decided not to find out, but that just didn't happen. There were too many decisions that couldn't be made until we knew. For example, the way we were splitting up the rooms in our new house. We moved on New Years into a new home and decided that it would be easier to put all of the kids where they will be forever, than having to rearrange furniture once the baby comes. We ended up putting Karson in with Kaleb...which they both LOVE!! The other major decision was whether or not to keep box after box of boy baby clothes that are taking over our garage! I just kept thinking that it would be so nice to be able to clear out all of the clutter if we were to have a girl.
Well, as some of you may already know, we are having a girl! Finally, I can't believe it. I have known for a few weeks now and it still hasn't hit me. I honestly don't think it will until I am holding her in my arms. I keep telling myself not to get too excited. That she is actually a he. I still walk past girl clothes without a second look. It just can't really be happening. I have wanted a girl so bad it hurts. Now that it is finally happening, I am almost panicked! I just feel like everything has to be perfect for her. I don't know if it is because she is a girl, or my last baby. I obsessed over her name. I still can't find that perfect baby bedding. I feel like she needs a new car seat, even though we just bought a brand new one for Koen that is still in perfect condition. The coming home outfit must be exactly what I am looking for. I am having some MAJOR OCD issues with this baby!
Getting back to the name we picked... it will be Kassidy Lynne. I had a HUGE list of "K" baby girl names and we narrowed it down to Kassidy or Khloe. Matt absolutely HATED Khloe... so obviously Kassidy was the one. My middle name is Lynne, and it is also my mom's name... so that is where that came from. I am very happy with the name we chose and can't wait to meet her. I wish I had pictures to post... but we don't have a scanner to get my ultrasound pics on the computer. They are adorable though. She likes to have her hands by her face and in one of them she is sucking her thumb!! SO cute.
If everything goes as planned, and Kassidy doesn't make an early arrival, her birthday will be May 18th. I have a scheduled C-section. I am also getting my tubes tied, so this will be the end of this chapter in our lives. It is hard to believe that we are going to be done having kids. I love everything about being pregnant. That feeling you get when you see the test turn positive, the first doctor's appointment, telling all of your family and friends, hearing the heartbeat for the first time, your first ultrasound, the first movement, maternity clothes, getting to eat for two, decorating the nursery, picking a name, wondering what the baby will look like, going to the hospital to deliver, and finally holding your baby in your arms. I love it all. It is hard to think that all of those things I mentioned will never happen to me again. It is bittersweet.
Well now that I am in tears, I will let you all go on with your lives. I am off to hug my boys... they always cheer me up!
